WJI 2017 Blog- Day Two PM- Healing through stories

May 15, 2017

Lawrence Feng

Rutgers University

I woke up with an incredibly dry throat.

I slept for about eight hours.

Still, I found it hard to sit up, get dressed, and want to be here.

I spent over an hour the night before crying in my bedroom.

Last night, I found out that one of my good friends had died Saturday morning.

His name was Sam Choi.

I loved him so much.

I struggled to focus the entire day. By the grace and strength of God alone, I managed to finish all of the writing assignments, make conversation, and smile without bursting into tears.

I couldn’t stop thinking about Sam.

When I found out, I wanted to jump on a shuttle back to Sioux Falls and fly back to New Jersey.

His viewing service will be on Thursday and his funeral will be on Friday.

I won’t make it to either.

I knew, as cliché as it may sound, that Sam wouldn’t ever want to hinder me in my pursuit of my future, or in my walk with God.

Amazingly, God comforted me so much today.

Being with other believers, doing the assignments, learning about journalism from a Christian perspective, and watching Spotlight helped me to find joy in the midst of mourning.

Today, the most powerful moment for me came when Lauren and I interviewed each other for our profile assignments.

We started off talking about our significant others, our families, our future plans, and, eventually, our testimonies.

All the while, I laughed, nodded, and wanted to talk about Sam.

Then, after a few deep breaths, I did.

I had called my girlfriend the night before, messaged numerous people, even briefly told my WJI apartment mates in passing. In my grief, I could hardly piece a single coherent sentence together.

But hearing Lauren’s stories and sharing Sam’s story brought me so much comfort, relief, and peace.

Being a journalist helped me get through today.

Being a journalist helped me heal.

I hope I can do the same for others one day by telling their stories.

I’m going to see you again, Sam.

And, on that day, we will worship the King together forever.

The Lord gives and takes away. Blessed be His Name forever and ever.

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